I write the words that plague my dreams. And dream up words that haunt my days. I’m figuring out my meaning in life and I can’t promise you the words I write will be anything other than they are: partly fiction and partly everything I’ve ever wanted to say. Rising Sophomore at BU I write to keep me sane.
"After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music."
How long should I stand
With arms held wide until you
Come walk into them.
It could all be so simple
Close your eyes and let this sink in
Behind your walls -
Those oh so tall walls -
Full of hurt and longing
For not me.
You’re wasting time
I’m wasting time
But you’re wasting more
Because I read it in our words
And feel it in every “I” and “love” and “you” we sprinkle into our metaphors
It’s sinking into our pores
And you’re closing every door
I left open for you to find your way to me.
"Say the words
You’ve said to me
A thousand times before”
You think it’s easy
I’m not who I am
When I’ve just figured it out
I can’t always be what you want me to be
What we want me to be
Because I’d never find this clarity again.
I’ve never said the words
Circling throughout my head
And maybe that’s the worst thing about me
I can let a word like “love” drop on a dime
Because it’s so simple
But I can never say the way you make me feel
The race of my heart
The fluttering in my stomach
The ache in my fingertips
And all of it.
It’s too much
And it’s why I’ll never look you in the eye
I’ll never say it out loud
I’m saving you from myself
She recognized me yesterday
And made no attempt to show I knew exactly who she was.
I held my eyes steady
No shock no lust no longing…
I know how this works
She must not.
The stars say we shouldn’t be
Or rather we couldn’t
And I’ve tried wrapping that around my mind
Many of times
Telling myself that stars are wise.
Celestial beings that have been around for billions of years
Must surely know more than my beating heart,
But that thumping in my chest
That rapid beating whenever you’re near
Says everything I’ll ever need to hear
And gives me hope
Even if the heavens above do not believe in our love.
I miss us together
I miss my family
I hate splitting time between the two of you because I never thought this could happen to me.
Words were said that can never be unsaid
And they burrowed holes into your pores
Soaking into every fear you’d ever felt
Every doubt you ever had.
She made you feel ashamed and unashamed
With that mouth that spouted words of praise and words of hate
And I know you can never forgive her
Neither can I
But it doesn’t stop me from missing us
And the memories that have become ever so tainted
It doesn’t make this hurt any less.
I just want to talk all night…
Well mostly I just want to hear about your day
Your aspirations and fears
I want to get to know you
All the better…
Greed: Something I can’t get enough of.
Chocolate and music
Started suggesting what I want for Christmas to my mom…I’m a spoiled brat. Hoping to secure a decent priced Strat or Tele